I know in order to make any sort of correction to my latest downfall I need to start working out again, walking, and eating right. In order to get back into the 100's and continue to live a healthy lifestyle I need to again cut the crap out of my life. I got over confident, if not cocky with my physical appearance and it hurt me. It's a humbling realization to write this and realize that I let myself destroy what I had built by becoming cocky. I felt hey, look at me I'm fit, I can eat this pizza and not worry about it.
Problem is now I have a mindset of "nothing is going to make me gain weight", even though I am gaining weight, that thought
still sits at the top of my mind while I eat. It's going to be hard, but I think I just need to start at the beginning again. I've said it a few times in the past few months, so the thing I need to do is create a plan of action and figure out a way to stick to it. I tell my kids often that attitude is everything. It's time that I heed to those words as well. I cannot keep thinking that I am untouchable.
My father was only 37 at the time of his first heart attack. I cannot let myself even get close to a situation like that. I feel if something like that would to happen to me, there would be no changing my attitude after that. I have battled depression and anxiety over my heart for years, something like that would be possibly too deep of a cut to overcome. So instead of putting myself in that situation it's time to get healthier and more fit.