At work we have started a new weight loss competition Biggest Loser style. Today I weighed in at 209 (of course this was clothed, with work shoes, and after eating breakfast.) We have six weeks to lose as much percentage as we can. I really think something like this is going to help kick-start my diet and getting back down in weight. Its been a struggle. A lot of stress in my life seems to keep weighing down my shoulders. However I'm becoming more and more confident that I am a warrior in God's army and that with him on my side, anything is possible.
Not saying that He is going to help me win. However, turning to him, and bringing the holy ghost closer to me in my life, is going to help me overcome the obstacles that I have been facing lately. To be honest when I started this blog tonight, I planned on talking about the competition and that was it. However, I have been moved to continue and write about more than what I originally thought I would.
I think the day my father passed away was the day I separated myself from the holy ghost. Since that moment I have felt different. Tonight I received a blessing from my father in law and it really opened up my eyes. The emptiness I have been feeling lately was not just the longing for my father to be near me again. It was also for the holy ghost that was pushed away at the same moment.
Ever since that moment it has been hard to care about my weight, my physique, and my well being. Lately with more prayer and a closer relationship to Jesus Christ I have felt like I have been coming closer to desiring the best for myself again. However with the blessing I had tonight it was an awakening to myself. The thought that I have cut off the holy ghost in my life lately is disheartening. Tonight I think a huge change has happened in me. It has me excited and hungry for change in my life. I cant wait to see where this takes me!
With that said it is again time to cut the crap out of my life and start to lose weight and become healthy. I have a surgery coming up and I need to make sure it is the only one I'm going to need. I need to get healthy again for my family, for myself and for my future.